Чем больше я изучать, тем я меньше много
Not really stable now. Don't know why. I'm dissipating like some spit. Melting, vaporising, fusing. It's time for a breaking point, a point of no return, when you feel sore, and fragile, and empty just because you are overcoming some tough shit you've always had and that has always been preventng you from being completely ok.